The last time I tried this school of Buddhism I had 3 Buddhas on my altar; Kwan Yin, Amitabha and Shakyamuni. And something odd happened. I started to get telepathic information from Amitabha; channelings which guided me to individual liberation of my true self from Maya. I heard no sound; they were what I can describe as "mental messages" or as some people say "inspiration". I actually got freightened and I thought I was becoming insane; I even tried to return the Buddha back to the store, but the seller said that was bad luck.
So Amitabha said to me the goal was no annihilation, no fusing with him, no union with the All, no eternal state of pure consciousness, but just becoming a Buddha, like him. Not becoming him, but becoming LIKE him, one more Buddha. Was that the famous "wisdom of separation" that he's supposed to teach? That goal was OK for me.
But as the weeks passed I felt my mind was shutting down. I turned very lazy and all I wanted to do was to stay there in front of the Buddhas all day, to do nothing and think of nothing. Eventually this begun to affect my daily life and I removed them from my altar. Now I just keep trying stuff on my own, but I'm in no particular path. Anyway, what happened to me with the Buddhas still puzzles me to this day.
Thanks in advance for any answers.
Credit: http://asatru-religion.blogspot.com
